Please. 

I’m done dwelling in the past, all I can do is change tomorrow. 

Breathe. 

So close to being to that point. I’m just tired. 

I don’t know where to go from here. 

since my beautiful Nene passed away. I didn’t cry, like I thought I would. I spent time with my Papa and looked through pictures of her and listened to him talk about how perfect she was. He just kept saying how he wished he could have just crawled beside her in that casket and they could have gone away together. I know it was a hard day for him, I can only imagine what it must be like losing the love of your life. Especially the last few years she was alive with her Alzheimer’s…she just wasn’t herself. 

I regret not getting to know her better, and not going to see her when she stopped recognizing me. I had heard that people with Alzheimer’s like music, and I planned to go sing to her that day…but I got to her house too late and she had already passed. 

I’m just happy that I got to sing at her funeral, I know she was in Heaven, fully healed and listening to me. I hope that she loved it. 

Every time I hear that song, I know she is in Heaven, gardening and walking with God and looking down at her family. 

I love you Nene, I can’t wait to see you again. 

“And He walks with me, and He talks with me,
And He tells me I am His own;
And the joy we share as we tarry there,
None other has ever known.”